Pinching Pennies

I really feel like I should be using this site more. I'm letting go of the premium version of this because I can't afford it this year, so I'm not sure what my blog will look like after that. Oh well. Honestly with this site I had intended it to be a mental health haven [...]

Struggles

Things have been pretty stressful for a while now. I'm experiencing severe anhedonia. All I've been wanting to do is sleep. I'm actually surprised I'm even writing this. I've been so stressed that my hair is falling out. I'm behind on all of my bills and I've been fighting with the DHHS for my medical [...]

Crises

Here we are again. This is going to be a really long post and I'll be blathering and shit, just so whatever readers I might have are aware. I've realized over time that I've been cycling for years and on the completely wrong medication. Rose and I are on the rocks because of my illness [...]

New job!

I just did my physical for the community support aide position today. Of course, since my car took a shit downstate, I've been riding my bike around town. I was a bit sweaty when I got to the occupational health office but luckily they didn't seem to care. There was a lot of paperwork to [...]

Returning to my Hometown

It amazing how things can be so crazy even when you don't go outside of your brother's house or neighborhood for days and days at a time. Rose and I are not going to live together. Things just got too fucky. Had I already had housing back in my city, maybe it could have worked [...]

Unsure.

I have said a lot that this medication has been working for me, but on and off I have been a bit unsure. I know medicine will never be perfect, but it's a little unnerving to sometimes just not feel anything. I always felt something before I got on this mood stabilizer of course. I [...]